Since they would be in school today until noon, I decided to stay at the house and meet Geoff at the orphanage around lunch instead of joining the supervising crew all morning. This appeared to be a great idea until Geoff called apologizing saying he had forgotten to leave the money for the bus fare as we'd planned and had all our cash with him. For some reason these buses don't take credit cards and the 2+ hour walk to the orphanage was not something I really wanted to do alone. This left me stranded.
Throughout the day I have struggled with my need to be "working" and "busy" as my native culture has trained me. I was worried about being productive enough to "make up" for not being at the orphanage. I had to force myself to stop working and have a cup of tea and admire the ocean. Why? Why does it feel wrong to stop my comparably meaningless pursuits to admire and enjoy God's creation? This is part of why Geoff and I are here. We are struggling to learn that it is not about what we DO, but about who HE is. I am looking forward to going to the orphanage tomorrow, but I have enjoyed today and the opportunity to reflect on who God is and what He (not my culture, peers, self, etc.) expects from me.
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God."